What makes it beautiful

What are we doing as people? Are we really listening to those around us? Do we even truly see someone who is right in front of us? Are things really what they seem? Work, social media, possessions and looking good among other things have consumed many of our lives. Maybe not 24/7 for some but I have felt, lived and observed our lives consumed by so many things portrayed/perceived as so important. In my perfect world there would be nothing more important than the person or people around you. And I’m not just talking about family. I’m talking about your neighbor. The person in line in front of you. Anyone who crosses your path. But again that’s my perfect world which I don’t always live in personally. I’ve caught myself rushing to work and seeing someone on the side of the road obviously needing help. But I don’t stop. I continue on with my day as if my being on time for work or whatever I’m doing is more important than simply taking the time to help or maybe just check on another human being. This used to make me angry. Now I just feel sad. In some aspects the disconnect grows and grows. Other times I’m truly amazed by the consecutiveness surrounding me. It’s not my place to judge or dictate how ones life is lived. But I do feel it is all of our duties as human beings to question ourselves as well as others. To really take stock of what’s going on within and around us. A sense of awareness coupled with connection. Life is a beautiful thing and we all get to choose what makes it beautiful. I invite us all to choose willingly, considerately and knowingly.

Charlotte

Below is something I wrote to my daughter before she was born. It felt strange writing it at first, but looking back I’m glad I did it. Even years ago while exploring my spiritual side I would talk to her and dream of her. It’s like she was waiting for her turn in life and had already chosen us as parents. We just needed to choose each other. The more I dive into my spirituality and honestly just life as I feel being here is a spiritual experience. The more I embrace the unknown. To me spirituality requires a lot of trust and letting go in the face of the unknown. Believing in something bigger and more powerful than ourselves. For me the word I use is Universe. I believe everything and everyone is connected creating a universal power within us all and everything around us.

Charlotte,

Where do I begin…

I’ve always dreamt of having a little girl.

I feel like I have been waiting for you my whole life.

I knew the moment your mother and I connected she was something special.

Little did I know she would be the one to make all my dreams come true.

From the moment we started dating it felt like I had known her forever.

Even when times were tough,

something inside me knew she was the one I would love forever.

The best choice I have ever made will always be loving your mother.

I know in my heart that you will love her as much as I do. Maybe more.

If there is one thing you should know,

It is that as my heart continues to grow there is enough love for both of you.

I am excited to meet you and I will always be there whenever you both need me.

I have always wondered what my life’s purpose was. Now I know it is enjoying every moment I have with you and your mom.

The two of you make me a better human.

I love you.

– Dada

Unmeasurable

Without women nothing in this world would be possible or as beautiful. The strength, compassion, love and overall drive is something I have continually experienced from the women I have been so fortunate to have in my life. You are literally creators of life among so many other things. So much power and intuition packed into a human. If you ever feel undervalued or if you are ever treated that way. I want you to know you are so much more. Your value is truly unmeasurable. I take comfort in seeing the changes and progress being made for equality and value in all human beings. It gives me a great sense of hope that my daughter, our children and everyone will have the opportunity to live in this world as one. Coexisting in harmony without the unneeded hate or judgements. But for today cheers to all the amazing women out there and to all the women in my life you are appreciated and loved. Big shout out to my wife for inspiring me daily and holding me to a higher standard of being. You always rock mine and Charlotte’s world as a mama.😘 #internationalwomensday

In my heart

I’ve been really struggling lately with the realization that I won’t be home and able to spend as much time with my wife and daughter. For those who don’t know. We sold our home in CA and moved to AZ in July last year. This move was thought about for years but also there was a lot I never thought about. Since Charlotte was born 23 months ago I’ve been blessed with being able to be home the huge majority of the time. Something most fathers and some mothers do not have the luxury of experiencing. I’ve been present and able to create a unique bond with my family which has allowed us to grow and become closer. It makes me think about the impact this will have going forward. The impact on me is profound but I’m curious the impact on my daughter. Based on current situations I’m not sure the next child (when we decide to have one) will get the same time Charlotte received. It’s kinda like a real life experiment with real life results. I try not to project to far into the future but as I get older life seems to leave me with more questions than answers. I find myself questioning whether providing a certain lifestyle and certain luxuries are really going to matter. Or if my time/presence is more valuable than any object or lifestyle I could provide. I’m sure I’m not alone in this. I’m not looking for sympathy as I know how fortunate I am just to be here. In my heart I believe my time/presence is more valuable than anything but I constantly struggle with the balance aspect. Where is that line… when and where should I cross it?

The one to look up to

I always dreamt of having a little girl. Holding her, loving her and raising her. What I did not expect was the profound love I would receive in return. This girl is a lover of all things. Whether you are a person , animal or tree. She gently touches and smells the flowers as she walks by. She gently pets our dog Ziggy and says good boy. She says hello and lovingly touches the trees she encounters. She wraps her arms around your neck squeezing tight and says I love you. She is so deeply and thoughtfully connected with her surroundings. Sometimes I feel as if I’m the one being raised and she is the one to look up to. Her kindness and genuine love constantly remind me of what is true and what is valuable in life. That is just one of the many things my daughter taught me.

euphoric bliss

It is all about mind, body and spirit. Expand your mind. Take care of your body. Embrace your spirit. Try to find things that bring you true peace. Bring you good health. Bring you pure joy. If you can find something that brings you all three at once…that is what I call euphoric bliss.