In my heart

I’ve been really struggling lately with the realization that I won’t be home and able to spend as much time with my wife and daughter. For those who don’t know. We sold our home in CA and moved to AZ in July last year. This move was thought about for years but also there was a lot I never thought about. Since Charlotte was born 23 months ago I’ve been blessed with being able to be home the huge majority of the time. Something most fathers and some mothers do not have the luxury of experiencing. I’ve been present and able to create a unique bond with my family which has allowed us to grow and become closer. It makes me think about the impact this will have going forward. The impact on me is profound but I’m curious the impact on my daughter. Based on current situations I’m not sure the next child (when we decide to have one) will get the same time Charlotte received. It’s kinda like a real life experiment with real life results. I try not to project to far into the future but as I get older life seems to leave me with more questions than answers. I find myself questioning whether providing a certain lifestyle and certain luxuries are really going to matter. Or if my time/presence is more valuable than any object or lifestyle I could provide. I’m sure I’m not alone in this. I’m not looking for sympathy as I know how fortunate I am just to be here. In my heart I believe my time/presence is more valuable than anything but I constantly struggle with the balance aspect. Where is that line… when and where should I cross it?

The one to look up to

I always dreamt of having a little girl. Holding her, loving her and raising her. What I did not expect was the profound love I would receive in return. This girl is a lover of all things. Whether you are a person , animal or tree. She gently touches and smells the flowers as she walks by. She gently pets our dog Ziggy and says good boy. She says hello and lovingly touches the trees she encounters. She wraps her arms around your neck squeezing tight and says I love you. She is so deeply and thoughtfully connected with her surroundings. Sometimes I feel as if I’m the one being raised and she is the one to look up to. Her kindness and genuine love constantly remind me of what is true and what is valuable in life. That is just one of the many things my daughter taught me.

Not everything requires action

Not everything requires action…

Recognize it without judgment. Let it come up an be there. Sometimes you just need to sit with it. If it becomes a theme in your life, there may be something to dig deeper into and uncover the root.

I’ve personally found that just having the awareness to recognize is all you need.

Something Beautiful

It’s interesting to me how we grow to love people but with our children it’s instant. There isn’t a honeymoon phase or first impression. Just pure and utter love. There is something beautiful about it. It makes me think about love in my life. Whether it’s giving or receiving. I’ve always had a hard time telling people I loved them. It did not mean I did not, it was just uncomfortable for me to get the words out. But like anything the more you do it the easier it gets. Now I make sure to tell people I love them. I feel this unconditional instant love I felt for Charlotte has unlocked something inside me that was always there. It allowed me to be clear on what love is to me and where love is in my life. Which brings me back to… there is something beautiful about it.

This isn’t a test

At times we may not see eye to eye. We all have had different experiences that have shaped our perspective. I believe everyone’s perspective is valuable. No matter how abrasive or pleasant it may seem. It’s in the listening, asking questions and understanding that we grow as humans. I myself struggle with this daily. My ego flares up and I get angry or just emotionally shut down. There is this need to be right and look as if we know exactly what we are doing at all times. I’m here to tell you it’s okay to not have a plan. It’s okay to not have it all together all the time. We are human beings living a life through the lens(perspective) of our hardships, our joys, our failures and our successes. That should never be discounted but it should be checked constantly by being open to others ideas and ways of seeing the world. Stop what you are doing and close your eyes. Take a deep breath and let it all out. Now imagine you are free to share your perspective without fear of rejection. Imagine you can be open and unafraid of judgement while going through your life. What does that look like? How does it feel? To me it felt like connection, a sense of relief and peace. This isn’t a test and your are encouraged to feel however you feel. I invite you to hold onto that feeling and examine it. Maybe try that in other aspects of your life. Being human isn’t just about being here. It’s about thriving and enjoying this journey we call life. I don’t know nor do I speculate what’s after this life. That’s for everyone to create and decide for themselves. I just want to invite you to make it the best journey you possibly can. Whatever that truly means to you. -Jeffrey

Charity=Love

Many of us have no idea what it’s like to be thirsty. We have plenty of water to drink — even the water in our toilets is clean!

But many people around the world don’t have that luxury. Every day, about 1,400 children die from diseases caused by unsafe water and poor sanitation. But it doesn’t have to be that way. There are simple solutions like drilled wells, spring protections and BioSand filters that help provide clean water to communities around the world.

I started this fundraising campaign to help charity: water build these types of projects around the world, and I’m looking for anyone who can help me.

Please donate to my campaign — anything you can give is a huge help.

100% of the money will be used to build clean water projects, and when they’re complete, charity: water will send us photos and GPS coordinates so we can see the exact community we helped.

This December the 8th 2018 marks 33 years on this earth for me. I’ve learned a lot, I’ve experienced a lot and I’ve received a lot. Although my life has its challenges as well as it’s ups and downs, I am beginning to realize just how fortunate and grateful I am. So to celebrate 33 incredible years, I am donating my birthday as well as my Christmas this year to help bring a basic daily necessity to as many people as possible. I stumbled upon The Rich Roll podcast, which introduced me to Scott Harrison who operates Charity Water which then led me to Charity Water’s YouTube channel. 

With so many issues that need to be solved in this world it can be overwhelming. But for some reason this cause really sank deep into my heart. I invite you to visit YouTube and view some of Charity Water’s videos. Also check out their website. Honestly the thought of not being able to bathe our daughter regularly, her drinking disease infested water and potentially dying from something as basic as diarrhea or dehydration just shakes me to my core. I’ve realized how I have taken so much for granted. In our home we literally have 3 sources of fresh water. We have city water from the faucets and even clean water in our toilets. We have a reverse osmosis system at our kitchen sink which we use for cooking and rinsing food. We even pay monthly to have 5 gallon jugs of fresh spring water delivered which is strictly our drinking water. Our daughter has literally never had “Tap” water in her 1.5 years on this earth. We are fortunate to say the least. Although we will continue this way of living which we have worked hard to achieve. Now that we have seen what Charity Water is doing and the insane impact having clean water has on a community, we simply can not turn our backs and go on with our regularly scheduled lives. We feel it is our honor to help those in need and this is only the beginning. So I invite you to join me and donate $33 dollars to celebrate 33 wonderful years of my life. Feel free to donate more or less. Even $1 makes a difference. If donating isn’t your thing or something is holding you back, please reach out to me for more info any way and time. We aim to make a huge impact so we are also going to donate $33 dollars a month from December 2018 to December 2019. Asking for help is really out of my comfort zone but I’ve realized by doing nothing I’m contributing to the issues of the world. I realized that while I’m being afraid to ask for help or what others will think of me, people are dying. 33 isn’t just an age… it’s the turning point of my life and possibly yours. The year I stop letting possessions and vanity hold me back. The year we make a change which changes the lives of everyone around us. 

– Jeffrey

Here is the link:

Click here to Donate and learn more. Thank you

Humbled

Growing up I was raised by my mom and sister the majority of the time. So I have always had a more sensitive side as well as a respect for women. That sensitivity and respect has been tested over the years. I’m definitely guilty of mistreating and undervaluing women among other people from time to time. It stems from insecurities and honestly just a lack of knowledge/experience. In today’s world we see so much mistreatment not only towards women but towards humanity as a whole. It’s as if we have forgotten that we are all connected and here on this journey together at the same exact time. Coincidence? I believe everything happens for a reason and we can control/guide our futures. At times I feel lost and out of balance. Then I connect with someone, feel grateful and humbled. I know it’s hard to stay awake in life when sometimes it just feels easier to close your eyes. I am here to encourage you to push through and keep your eyes and heart open. This year my wife and I chose words we want to focus and work on. My word for 2018 is vulnerability. Without vulnerability how can we truly connect? How can we truly live? How can we truly thrive? Vulnerability= Connection= Fulfillment

The Journey

It’s interesting how we make such big life decisions without any real experience and at times on a whim. When we buy a car we maybe drive it once or twice then purchase it. When we buy a home we don’t even get to sleep there before making the biggest purchase of our lives. When we are in our teens or early 20’s we are told to pick a path or a career for the rest of our life. It just seems strange to me that we are supposed to pick our passion/profession at such a young age and just blindly stick the course. As I sit here writing this and honestly feeling anger and dissatisfaction in the way our society works. I start to think… does this really even matter? I feel I’m doing exactly what got us here and is keeping us here. I’m giving away my power, my peace of mind and happiness to a thought and these items which really don’t have anything to do with my quality of life. A car is a car. Although some cars may be more expensive or “nicer” than others, which depends on your perspective. It is still just a tool to get you from point A to point B. Same with a house. Does it really matter as long as you have shelter. A clean and comfortable place called home. Even a job or a career can be changed at any point in your life. With that being said, are we going to let these things or the people around us dictate our quality of life? I say it’s time we took our power and our lives back. It’s time we take a step back, slow down and get back to what’s really important to us. It’s time to do what feels right for you and your family. You can start today by being grateful for the life and the things you do have. Pause, take a breath and just observe the miracle around you. The moment you start treating everything as an opportunity and a gift you will begin to see your life transform around you. Happiness is the journey not the destination.

Time

We spent a few days up at the beautiful Lake Arrowhead, CA with some family. Even on vacation in an amazing place I find myself worrying about the past and the future. Not being present enjoying the gorgeous scenery and the time with my family. I don’t know about you, but I usually seem to get distracted and caught up in my thoughts about work, stuff I need to do or just silly unnecessary baloney. It really takes a pep talk with myself to snap out of it and realize that this moment right now is what I need to be focused on. The work. The stuff. The baloney. It will all be there waiting for me. Dwelling on them does nothing but create anxiety and an absence from the moments happening now. One thing I’ve noticed is the pep talks get shorter and easier the more I do it. So next time you feel yourself distracted and not in the present moment just focus on your breath and remind yourself that this moment right now is all you need to focus on. We may not be able to slow down time, but we can be more focused and present with the time we do have. 

Gentle and present

Being present…

Did you just hear a little voice in your head? Did I lose your attention for a second? Were you making a judgement about the empty space above? Well, I’m here you to tell you that’s okay. It is okay to acknowledge that little voice in your head. Just don’t always take its advice. It is okay to let your mind wander. Just gently bring it back to this moment. It’s okay to have and feel judgement. Just know it’s not always real or relevant. We are human and this is life. We are not perfect. Next time your mind wanders or that little voice in your head speaks up. Acknowledge it. Then choose what to do from there. However you choose to proceed, be gentle and present.